Unlike almost all of my female coworkers I don't think I have ever cried in front of our boss in the four years I have worked at this job, nor do I think I cried in front of my previous employer. As for in front of my husband...maybe a handful of times in the four years we have been together? And the majority of those times had NOTHING to do with him, rather he just walked in at the wrong time.
In fact, during my miscarriage I didn't really HAVE that 'good cry' that I probably needed. When I picked him up at the airport a few days after it happened, I had expectations of running into his arms and crying but life doesn't always play out the way it does in your head. He gave me a quick hug and kiss, and then ran to the bathroom...pretty anti climatic. I quietly drove him home while tears rolled down my cheeks but I didn't bother to tell him anything was 'wrong'. (Yes, I have a tendency to pick the wrong times to be a 'private' person and not share my problems)
Three weeks later when I found out I had to get my RH- shot NOW before the window closed, I called to tell him, he sounded more put out about leaving late to drive to my parents then concerned about me. I walked back to my office and enjoyed a 5 minute silent cry in the bathroom before I cleaned up and went back to work. I wrote him a long email explaining that I needed his support and that I had cried in the bathroom when I should have been able to cry on the phone to him. To his credit he called me back extremely apologetic that he didn't make my concern a priority but by then I was in control again.
Perhaps since I haven't really had a real good cry since my wedding (yeah that is a completely different story which I will tell another day, some parts amazing and others not so much), stress has been quietly building up inside of me. I keep saying that I'm NOT stressed when it is brought up as a possibility that maybe that is why my period hasn't arrived but now I am not so sure. Just because I don't feel like I'm at the end of my rope like I use to when I missed my period in the past (before I was on the pill), doesn't mean my body isn't retaining stress right now.
Although I am not a crier in 'real life' I AM a huge crier for sappy movies and novels. And I LOVE it. I was just discussing this topic tonight with my sister-in-law, on our way home from The Vow. Where, yes, I cried...big huge tears running freely down my face; quick, shuddering breathing...all and all a good messy looking cry, nothing pretty about how I looked walking out of the theater and it was GREAT.